I recently fell out with a handful of friends, and the damage is irreparable. It’s one of those situations where you unintentionally inconvenience them, and they do what they should do as friends, then wash their hands of you completely. And then a few days later they come knocking at your door demanding an apology, a thank you, the whole cab fare etc. No ‘are you all right’, just them telling everyone what a great, gracious friend they are, and what a bad person you are for making a huge mistake.
It was more my decision in ending the relationships, some of them weren’t directly involved, but gossiped about me persistently behind my back, putting their two cents in, a few ‘she should have said sorry’ and ‘that’s so embarrassing she’s such an idiot’, without contacting me at all when I had to go through a week of talking to no-one out of shame, and no-one even trying to talk to me (save a few of my true friends).
So now prom’s coming up and I just don’t want to go. People are telling me that I’ll regret it, but I don’t think so. I went to my secondary school prom two years ago, and since then people have joined the sixth form from different schools, and I don’t talk to any of them. Also, another joint school will be sharing our prom, so I’ll only know about 20% of the people, and talk to less.
Also, obviously I have body dysmorphic disorder, so prom’s already a challenge. I just don’t see the point in prom. Teacher’s say I’ll regret it, but will I? Really? Anyone not go to prom, or think I should go?